FS-novel 616. Kingdom come, 2
616. Kingdom come, 2
(Rose)Sometimes, things don’t go as we planned and hoped for.
I was this close to ever see the city of New York.
It’s just a few days away from here.
But now, this morning, I think this day will never come.
Because of that shiver we all had at dawn. I felt it, and saw the hair standing in ripples over Blume and Nokaranlık.
They felt it too. And we all looked at the sea and rising sun as one.
I felt a chill. And when I then gazed at Blume, her stance, her face and her expression, I began feeling an even worse chill.
My eyes began tearing up, as that shiver wouldn’t leave me.
Because I know.
I don’t need to have the entire span of perceptions and senses of a being-like-her, to connect the dots.
Nokarlık is confused and scared.
Blume is terrified and crying.
I know how this will end, and I already am crying.
I don’t want to die...
Not now. Not so close to my goal. Not leaving Nok alone for all the years to come.
I lost a few tears, the sight of which worries Nokarlık greatly. She hugs me first, still confused and worried.
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Blume is more human than she ever was.
She’s crying, terrified of what’s to come to us, and what happened out there.
The sun rises innocently in the sky, slowly.
My feeling was abstract but understandable, but Blume and Nok must have seen or heard the thing far more clearly.
We understood what that ripple was.
Blume had shared with us that dreadful series of experiences, being terrified of the magenta sunrises.
It has risen again...
And we shiver and cry.
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R – Am I... cursed? Since Ogre, it’s like it never ends... Wave after wave...
And each time, it somehow feels worse. Because Terra In. broke the limits of biological powers and physics.
Making things like that horror, a possible outcome...
Blume looks dire as she speaks.
B – As long as there is T.I. on Earth, gods will rise.
That is why out there, Annie is guarding the door of its source shut. The world has been flooded once, and gods still continue to rise. Annie prevents it from doing a dreadful repeat of the white day.
But meanwhile outside, ominous outcomes like Magenta can still happen.
And it can still manage to return from beyond the most absolute of graves...
R – It was nuked in space for fuck sake... And we know nuclear fire does break T.I. structures outside baryonic plane. How can it still be alive?
My know-it-all Blume is as agape and lost as me. Usually she would at least have a theory, a very plausible hypothesis. But this morning she’s as lost as I. Possible even worst...
N – Magenta is resurrected?
R – It seems so... That shockwave we felt, it was its... signal. Its scream.
N – Back to life like you?
Nokaranlık has heard of my many, many downfalls and demises, and as many returns to life as a human daiûa.
I’ve learnt to fly and resurrect in more ways than meets the eye. I guess it was presumptuous to believe these experiences and tricks would only be mine.
Why wouldn’t daiûas like Magenta insure their revival as well...
Which makes the fight hopeless.
It’s a weeding job we’ll eventually fail. Be it this year or in ten...
One day, the ocean of T.I. will be conquered, and birth something able to encompass it all, for better or worse.
If it’s Magenta, it’s definitely the worst. Nothing else on Earth will be allowed to live anymore, or even be able to become alive in a century or so.
At least, we have some time to act before it reaches the end, but...
The later we go, the bigger it will grow...
The longer we wait, the harder it will be to beat this growing tumour.
I don’t want to see again that rain of darkness and fires that melts the ground to lava and volcano.
The sooner we weed out this wild grass, the better and safer for all...
Blume knows what I’m thinking.
B – Rose is never one to refuse her call of duty...
R – My moral values give me my humanity I could say... However we want to put it... I must go...
I feel responsible. I always have. And ever since... Ever since my life had a meaning, I’ve had to run ahead and face the flames.
I don’t know... It’s hard to think right now. I’m not happy one bit about it, but I have to go and do the right thing.
And it saddens me that the stakes and costs are this insanely high.
I don’t have a clue of what to do yet, nor even how to cross the Atlantic ocean...
But that’s what we have to do now.
I still sob at the thought of leaving Nokaranlık behind.
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As the day went, we discussed our limited options and ideas of what to do next.
At one point, I shooed away Nok whom was pestering me for attention.
That was such a sad mistake. But I made it. Fuck...
She shooed me away when I tried to apologize and console her. She’s really hurt. I’ve hurt her, and she’s giving me that painful lesson.
I returned gloomy to Blume.
R – Should I... Leave her behind?
B – Why would you think that?
R – She’s less likely to die, or worst things even... And I don’t want to use her powers for my selfish stakes.
B – She can stand in the distance if that’s how you feel, but she needs to see, and to be with us. She needs to be able to learn and decide.
R – But if I die...
B – Then she needs to see it happen. She needs to see why and how.
It feels awful.
R – You have... unusually strong parenting opinions today, Blume...
She pulls my cheeks with a sadistic grin on her face.
B – I care for all the roses, at least a little. Because...
R – Because?
She suddenly looks somehow blank, like she forgot what she was about to say. She lets go of my cheeks.
B – Nah. Because I care for you, that’s all.
I missed something, but life goes on.
And before we knew it, twilight reappeared.
Nokarlık was playing with the crocodile when it happened.
Something dark suddenly hiding the sun and sky.
A shroud of darkness covering the land and making fears rising inside our minds.
Fears of what to come. Fear of death.
And the dark twirl surrounded us, growing.
Nokaranlık began screaming her panic in the dark, until I was able to reach her and hold her hand.
Behind her tears, she saw in stupor that I was all tears and smiles.
Her mother, my best friend and now sister. She arrives.
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